self described and self defined.

 

you can always turn your life around with an open mind

“I’m fine”

kateaustinn:

There were times “I’m fine” was the happiest I had been in weeks

And long days that stretched out into even longer nights

It’s funny how the saddest days feel like they last the longest

And how the happiest days feel like they lasted minutes

I was overcome by my own demons 

First in waves, then I was drowning

And I thought “I’m fine” was the best it would ever be

Then I realized “I’m fine” was a lie

Because nothing was fine

And then I decided to be my own lifesaver
And hung on until I could swim out of the waves of my own sadness

Treading water turned into walking on land
And I was finally able to feel air flowing through my lungs
Instead of choking on the fear of living another day

One day “I’m fine” will turn into “okay”
And “okay” will turn into “happy”
And living won’t be a burden
And every breath will be a gift

Don’t give up
Tread until you swim
Swim until you reach land
And run freely into the light when you find your footing
And “I’m fine” will turn into “I’m alive”

I am amused at the amount of insecurity it takes to hit me up